It all started when I turned 13. Alala ko pa noon isang pimple lang parang katapusan na ng mundo.
Pano, lahat ng kaklase ko makinis tapos ako aba may malaking namumulang piso sa baba. Habang tumatagal, lalong dumadami pimples ko pero yung sa friends ko pa-isa-isa lang.
Sabi nila it’s normal and hayaan lang pero hindi kasi nila siguro alam yung feeling na hindi maging masaya sa nakikita sa salamin. Bumagsak talaga self-esteem ko.
As an over-achiever in school, sobrang laki ng effect sa’kin nun inaamin ko. Imbes na maka-focus ako sa studies at extra-curricular activities, mas naging worried ako sa itsura ko- sobra akong naging insecure.
Naapektuhan lahat. Ang goal ko pa that time was to graduate from elementary as Valedictorian para sa 100% scholarship for highschool. Consistent Top 1 ako sa batch namin until I entered puberty and the pimples came.
Sadly, hindi ko na naabot yung una kong pangarap para sa family ko. 💔 Sobrang sakit pa rin kapag naaalala ko. 2 years na lang, sure na Valedictorian na sana ako.
Kaya lang sa 2 years na yun, ang laki ng binagsak ng performance ko and nahatak yung General Average ko. Wala ako masabihan nun kasi natatakot akong masabihang mababaw lang problema ko at nag-iinarte lang ako. Feeling ko ‘di nila maiintindihan. 😞
Pagpasok ng highschool, naisip ko 2nd chance siya para grumaduate ako as Valedictorian para naman sa college scholarship. 👊🏻 Alam kong kaya ko, pero alam ko ring hindi ko magagawa yun kung palala nang palala acne problems ko.
Ang masama pa, hindi lang sa loob ng school yung insecurity ko. So at the risk na mapagtawanan, I started putting on MAKEUP. Kahit nasa bahay ng relatives, kailangan naka-make up ako. ‘Pag natanong naman ako, todo deny. Then I tried skincare.
Things were getting more and more expensive, at ‘di na gumagana yung tatakpan lang. Sa sobrang insecure ko, I made sure na maayos social media photos ko. Lahat ng pictures ko from before inedit or pina-edit ko bago i-upload para mukhang clear skin. Kahit sa social media man lang magustuhan ko yung nakikita kong itsura.
My entire high school life, I remember spending more time worrying and being extremely anxious about my face and how I look than being able to really focus on my studies and goals in life. Sadly, hindi ko ulit naabot yung pagka-Valedictorian. 😪
My worsening insecurity even followed me during my entire time in college. Not one of my friends in college, even my best friend, saw me without makeup.
Sa isip ko, if I couldn’t love myself dahil ako mismo nandidiri sa itsura ko, how can I expect others to love me? I was so scared of the thought that everyone I care about would look at me with disgust and leave me, so I chose to stay behind a mask all those years through my makeup. 😪
Naalala ko pa yung isang gabi when I spent 1 whole hour going through my elaborate 6-step routine na ilang taon before ko nabuo by watching Youtube videos, consulting dermatologists, and studying about acne.
Sobrang desperate ko na, imagine isang oras skincare ko habang iba wala pang 10 minutes!
Naawa na ako sa sarili ko that time. Napaiyak na lang ako sa CR nang palihim noon kasi naisip ko, bakit ganun parang kahit anong gawin ko walang nangyayari.
I spend p10,000 each month drinking at least 6 different vitamins, plus yung handpicked diet para maging ACNE-FREE. Ubos lagi sweldo ko. 😞 Pakiramdam ko talaga pinagsakluban ako ng langit.
Everything was going well until September 2017. ‘Di ko na kinaya yung P10,000 buwan-buwan kaya napatigil ako. A week after ko tumigil, I had my WORST BREAKOUT in history. 😭
So narealize ko na para sa wala lang pala yung lahat ng ginawa ko dati. Ang sakit nung marealize ko! Lahat ng lakad ko with friends, ‘di ko pinuntahan. Sa bahay lang ako. Ito na naman.
Akala ko nakagraduate na ako sa acne problem ko. Nung nalaman ng Tita ko, nirecommend niya sakin na mag-LUXXE WHITE. Isabay ko raw yung LUXXE PROTECT before sleeping para raw mas ma-absorb yung enchanced glutathione content.
And para holistic yung pag-repair, gamitin ko yung CELEBRITY SOAP #1. Na-sales talk na si kuya total of P4,240. 😂 Pero compared naman sa P10,000 monthly ko dati na napunta rin naman sa wala naisip ko ‘di na masama lalo na kung gagana.
Believe it or not, and I’m not kidding but JUST A MONTH LATER, nagsimula ko na makita kung bakit may hype and I couldn’t be any happier! 😱😄
Bumalik sa’kin yung mga alaala na andami ko nang sinubukan, LAGI LANG AKO NA-DISAPPOINT. Flashback to 5 months since I started taking, and now my life was truly forever transformed.
I took a chance lang with Frontrow’s Luxxe Reveal products, ‘di ko akalain how much it would change my life for the better! 🙏🏻 Grabe feeling ko ngayon sobrang sarap mabuhay. 😃
Mas naging confident na ako humarap sa tao at gawin lahat ng hindi ko magawa before. I became more outgoing, dumami bigla friends ko, and napansin ng relatives and mga kakilala ko na ang gaan bigla ng feeling nila sa akin kasi naging masiyahin and positive ako. 😊
Suddenly, yung mahiyain na Geo ay naging life of the party na sa mga parties and reunions. 🤣🤘🏻 And because nalampasan ko yung acne problems and insecurities ko, yung mga friends ko na may similar na pinagdadaanan, even acquaintances na walang makausap about their insecurities.
I’m blessed to have become a source of strength and inspiration for them, and for me yun na yung isa sa pinakamagandang feeling! 🙏🏻 I was transformed.
I got through the storm, so now ako naman yung nakakatulong sa iba na umahon from their insecurities and unlock their fullest potential through my listening ear, a crying shoulder, and one bottle of Luxxe White at a time. Thank you, Frontrow!